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OOC: Bored?
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You guys bored of my OCs? Don't get many comments on anything anymore..
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OOC: Half Days~
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I'll be able to get on here more since I got accepted into the work program at school and I get to leave at like 11:20 every day now~ so days off I will be able to be on sooo much earlier~ wooooo~
Also, any tips on coloring? I super suck. And it anyone has any tips on using copic markers, do share because I just got some for Christmas and I just sort of look like this :
Also, any tips on coloring? I super suck. And it anyone has any tips on using copic markers, do share because I just got some for Christmas and I just sort of look like this :
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OOC: Thanks everyone!
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You are all so kind. I recieved so much support when I was down, and I really wasn't expecting that. I feel a lot better, and please forgive me if I worried you in my moment of weakness.
You are some of the best people I've come to know and I'm sad that I may never be able to meet any of you in person, but I am happy that I know I will still have you anyways!
I hope that I can be as good of a friend to you all as you are to me.
I really do care for you all, and I really appreciate all that you have done, and putting up with me when I'm being hopeless. I know I'm a stubborn butt for brains sometimes, so thank you for sticking with me.
I've been not responding to many messages lately and going back through them... I realized that I have no idea what's going on in half of them... If I don't respond to them today that means I completely forgot what was going on, and please strike up a new RP with me any time! It's just hard to navigate via phone so I can't go hunt down what was going on. UnU
I'll be posting new pictures soon!
You are some of the best people I've come to know and I'm sad that I may never be able to meet any of you in person, but I am happy that I know I will still have you anyways!
I hope that I can be as good of a friend to you all as you are to me.
I really do care for you all, and I really appreciate all that you have done, and putting up with me when I'm being hopeless. I know I'm a stubborn butt for brains sometimes, so thank you for sticking with me.
I've been not responding to many messages lately and going back through them... I realized that I have no idea what's going on in half of them... If I don't respond to them today that means I completely forgot what was going on, and please strike up a new RP with me any time! It's just hard to navigate via phone so I can't go hunt down what was going on. UnU
I'll be posting new pictures soon!
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OOC: Just ignore this
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I need to type what is going through my mind... I can't just hold it in and you can just press the X button so I know I'm not wasting much of your time cuz most people don't even read journals...
I've been pretty down on everything. My art. My OCs. My voice. School. My friends. I don't know what to do at this point... Every time I try I just feel like its crap. And I know all you guys support me and stuff but.. If I can't believe in myself what's the point? I can't even feel the point behind getting up each morning. I just feel like laying in bed and not moving, because no matter what I try I won't accomplish anything. I'm just so unhappy.. And it keeps getting worse. I don't know what to do. I'm not the type to cry but... It's getting harder not to. It hurts when you ask your own mother for help and she gets upset with you, asking you if she doesn't give you enough attention. And when you turn to your friends all they do is tell you to suck it up because their life is worse than yours, when they don't even know what's going on. What's the point in telling them what's going on? They won't care. I'm the one who is "always happy" and I'm the one who has to be the strong one and help then when they're down. It's all about what I can do to help them. Never how they can help me. Am I selfish because I need help sometimes too? Am I really being unreasonable to just want a hug sometimes and not have them accuse me of just wanting something from them? Am I that bad of a person that my own family doesn't want me around? What did I do? I don't understand what I did... I try so hard and I just don't know what I can do... Why do people talk to me if they don't like me? It hurts when you tell someone you love them and they tell you they can't say it back. Is my friendship really that worthless? Am I that worthless? In reality would you even care what happens to me? I'm just some girl on the Internet. If I disappeared would you just assumed I left the community? I'm told that people can't live without me, but I move 20 minutes away and people don't bother to see me. They can't live without me but they can ignore my texts. They can't live without me but they can tell everyone else how happy they are that I'm finally gone. If its that easy to lie to someone you've known for years, how much easier is it to lie to someone you've never physically met? Are my online friends just as fake?
I'm just going to stop typing now before I cry...
I think I'm losing my mind... I'm going crazy...
I've been pretty down on everything. My art. My OCs. My voice. School. My friends. I don't know what to do at this point... Every time I try I just feel like its crap. And I know all you guys support me and stuff but.. If I can't believe in myself what's the point? I can't even feel the point behind getting up each morning. I just feel like laying in bed and not moving, because no matter what I try I won't accomplish anything. I'm just so unhappy.. And it keeps getting worse. I don't know what to do. I'm not the type to cry but... It's getting harder not to. It hurts when you ask your own mother for help and she gets upset with you, asking you if she doesn't give you enough attention. And when you turn to your friends all they do is tell you to suck it up because their life is worse than yours, when they don't even know what's going on. What's the point in telling them what's going on? They won't care. I'm the one who is "always happy" and I'm the one who has to be the strong one and help then when they're down. It's all about what I can do to help them. Never how they can help me. Am I selfish because I need help sometimes too? Am I really being unreasonable to just want a hug sometimes and not have them accuse me of just wanting something from them? Am I that bad of a person that my own family doesn't want me around? What did I do? I don't understand what I did... I try so hard and I just don't know what I can do... Why do people talk to me if they don't like me? It hurts when you tell someone you love them and they tell you they can't say it back. Is my friendship really that worthless? Am I that worthless? In reality would you even care what happens to me? I'm just some girl on the Internet. If I disappeared would you just assumed I left the community? I'm told that people can't live without me, but I move 20 minutes away and people don't bother to see me. They can't live without me but they can ignore my texts. They can't live without me but they can tell everyone else how happy they are that I'm finally gone. If its that easy to lie to someone you've known for years, how much easier is it to lie to someone you've never physically met? Are my online friends just as fake?
I'm just going to stop typing now before I cry...
I think I'm losing my mind... I'm going crazy...
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OOC: Back~
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Sorry for not being on! I'm done visiting and stuff! So I'll be back on now. :3.
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